Not moving

I have thought about blogging a few times.  A fleeting thought.  I have been so consumed with myself this last month that my walk with the Lord has not moved.  I have not been seeking Him as I should. I have been too busy.  Too caught up in my own stuff.

I never felt the true meaning of Christmas this year.  I never focused on Jesus.  I never even went to church.  There were just too many other things going on.

I have started my new job this month.  I am truly blessed by that.  I am so thankful.  Yet I have not taken the time to thank him. I have not spent anytime alone with Him.

It takes a lot to admit this to the public.  This is where I am.  I know that I am wrong.  I am in a state of repentance.  I know that He is faithful and will welcome me back. But that doesn't give me the right to abuse His grace.

No one wants to admit they are "grace -abusers" but we all are at some point in our lives.  I am resolved to change this. I am tired of being tired and feeling empty.  I know that those feelings are a direct result of my lack of movement with the Lord.

What about you?  How is your walk? Could it be better? Is He first?

Sad...an update

The little girl that I wrote about yesterday, the one the Lord used to break my heart, is no longer available. A family has found her. A family that is in the process of their homestudy.  I am greatly saddened that she will not be ours but I am overjoyed that she is going to have a forever family.  Only the Lord knows the plans for her and for us.

For I know the plans for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper and not to harm plans to give you HOPE and a future. Jeremiah 29:11.